Monday, November 7, 2011
I have serious regrets?
If I was only smarter in my early twenties, I would not be struggling today. I let my parents control me until I was 24. I wished I wasnt so naive. I got a scholarship to go to community college, I finished my ociates degree, and also got a part time job to support myself. Then while I was working on my bachelors, I wanted to transfer to a more established school for a more promising degree in engineering and I also had enough money to move, matter in fact, my scholarship was renewable to my bachelors degree. My parents talked me into staying in town and not transferring so I obeyed my parents and finishing my degree at a vocational school to be close to them, I went to one of those stupid rip off wannabe universities, and graduated with a bachelors. After graduation, I couldnt get a job anywhere because I basically got a degree from mickey mouse university (joking). I got really upset and moved out of my parents home, after 8 months of desperatly searching for a job (living off crackers and rumon noodles). I found a job at this firm, BUT Now I know why this job was available, because nobody lasted a few months. I am not happy at my current job, I stay positive but my self esteem has taken a total hit. I have been searching for jobs again, and not found anything thanks to my degree, and the current economy. I thought about going back to school but I dont have any money, and I dont wanna take on any debt anymore. I am in 4 extra circular and volunteering activities to keep myself busy and uplifted but at the end of the day I have serious regrets and resentment towards myself, and I'm sort of disgusted that all of my cousins who basically didnt even go to school are landing great jobs, starting businesses, they have mentors, and I'm living paycheck to paycheck. ARGH!!!!!!!! Any advice for me? (Please dont tell me Im depressed because treating that costs money too. I dont want more problems I want solutions. I put in so much time and energy to be good productive person yet I have no success).
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